Bhaktivinoda's Song of Vaisnava Humbleness

0:00āmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣaāmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣaparere udvega diyāchi ye kotodiyāchi jīvere kleśaāmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanija sukha lāgi’ pāpe nāhi ḍoridayā-hīna svārtha-paronija sukha lāgi’ pāpe nāhi ḍoridayā-hīna svārtha-paropara-sukhe duḥkhī, para-duḥkhī,para-sukhe duḥkhī sadā mithya-bhāṣīpara-duḥkha sukha-karo,āmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣaāmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣaparere udvega diyāchi ye kotodiyāchi jīvere kleśa,āmāra jīvana sadā pāpe rataāśeṣa kāmanā,āśeṣa kāmanāhṛdi mājhe morakrodhī dambha-parāyaṇaāśeṣa kāmanā, hṛdi mājhe morakrodhī dambha-parāyaṇamada-matta sadā viṣaye mohitahiṁsā-garva vibhūṣaṇanidrālasya hata sukārye viratanidrālasya hata sukārye virataakārye udyogīāmi,nidrālasya hata sukārye virataakārye udyogīāmipratiṣṭha lāgiyāśāṭhya-ācaraṇalobha-hata sadā kāmīāmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣa,āmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣaparere udvega diyāchi ye kotodiyāchi jīvere kleśaparere udvega diyāchi ye kotoe heno durjana saj-jana-varjitaaparādhi nirantarae heno durjana saj-jana-varjitae heno durjana saj-jana-varjitaaparādhi nirantaraśubha-kārya-śūnya sadānartha-manāḥśubha-kārya-śūnya sadānartha-manāḥbārdhakye ekhona upāya-vihīnabārdhakye ekhona upāya-vihīnatāte dīna akiñcanabhakativinoda prabhura caraṇekore duḥkha nivedanabārdhakye ekhona upāya-vihīnatāte dīna akiñcanaāmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣaāmāra jīvana sadā pāpe ratanāhiko puṇyera leṣaparere udvega diyāchi ye kotodiyāchi jīvere kleśaāmāra jīvana sadā pāpe rata

Vaisnava humility and song introduction

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13:27Prabhupāda: Kṛṣṇa-kānti: The name of the song, the microphone stopped working. [indistinct] Eh? [indistinct]

13:32Devotee: What was the name of the song Śrīla Prabhupāda?

13:32Prabhupāda: Āmāra jīvana sadā pāpe rata. [tuning mṛdaṅga] [indistinct] [plays mṛdaṅga, karatālas] So you will play?

13:32Devotee: Yes I will play.

13:32Prabhupāda: Āmāra jīvana sadā pāpe rata. [29.55] Āmāra jīvana sadā pāpe rata nāhiko puṇyera leśa. This is a song sung by Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura in Vaiṣṇava humbleness. A Vaiṣṇava is always meek and humble.

Analysis of sinful human activities

30:16So he is describing the life of the people in general, taking himself to be one of them. The people in general are like the description given here.

30:36He says that "My life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to find out, you will not find even a trace of pious activities. Only full of sinful activities.

30:59And I am always inclined to give trouble to other living entities. That is my business. I want to see that others are suffering, and I enjoy."

31:20Nija sukha lāgi' pāpe nāhi ḍori. "For my personal sense gratification, I do not care for any sinful activities.

31:29That means I accept any kind of sinful activity if it is satisfactory to my senses." Dayā-hīna swārtha-paro. "I am not at all merciful, and only I see to my personal interest."

Negative character traits and pride

31:53Para-sukhe duḥkhī. "As such, when others are suffering I become very happy, and always talking lies," sadā mithyā-bhāṣī. "Even for ordinary things I am accustomed to speak lies." Para-duḥkha sukha-karo. "And if one is suffering, that is very pleasant to me." Aśeṣa kāmanā hṛdi mājhe mora. "I have got lots of desire within my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride."

32:42Mada-matta sadā viṣaye mohita. "I am captivated in subject matters of sense gratification, and almost I am crazy." Hiṁsā-garva vibhūṣaṇa. "My ornaments are enviousness and false pride." Nidralāsya hata sukārje birata. "I am subdued, or I am conquered by sleep and laziness," sukārje birata, "and I am always averse to pious activities," akārje udyogīāmi, "and I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities."

Laziness and impious social behavior

33:35Pratiṣṭha lāgiyāśāṭhya-ācaraṇa, "I always cheat others for my prestige." Lobha-hata sadā kāmī, "I am conquered by greediness and always lusty." E heno durjana saj-jana-barjita, "So I am so fallen, and I have no association of devotees." Aparadhi, "Offender," nirantara, "always."

34:14Śubha-kārja-śūnya, "In my life, there is not a beat of auspicious activities," sadānartha manāḥ, "and my mind is always attracted by something mischievous." Nānā duḥkhe jara jara. "Therefore at the fag end of my life, I am almost invalid by all such sufferings."

Consequences of sin and surrender

34:49Bārdhakye ekhona upāya-vihīna, "In my old age I have no other alternative now," tā 'te dīna akiñcana, "therefore by force, I have now become very humble and meek." Bhaktivinoda prabhura caraṇe, "Thus Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura is offering his statement of life's activities at the lotus feet of the Supreme Lord."

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